Walking in the middle of the road, with no destination in mind,
I walked out of the house for peace and only to unwind.
As I keep moving like a zombie, all that is happening around,
Flashes in front of my eyes and make me realize I am bound!
I so want to run away from everything that is happening.
I wish I could break down once, crying and howling!
It’s been months since I have shed a tear, for a simple reason,
I need to be strong as my family drives strength from me from season to season.
I am now falling short of strength with each passing day,
I look for an outlet and comfort in you or others in various ways.
To my surprise everyone I bank on, has his own life I realize,
So I still try to move on with no complaints banking on plans that never materialize!
Today I am standing at a t junction of my life,
Where one side is the life that I want from within,
The other side is the life I am forced to go, since the people on other side are not welcoming.
I am scared of taking any turn and still standing here.
I only think till how long I can stand here,
I know all of them are right there,
But why is everyone moving away,
What is going on in my life, I fail to understand,
I want to live what I want with my life in my hand.
Why everyone when I feel is closest starts to move away,
Why when I lose all hope and don’t need them, the come again?
Why, why, why?
I just don’t want o live anymore…
And if I really have to, then I want to where it is only me…
Because yet again I am all alone in this crowded world!